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Serenity is about the peacefulness in life that is hard to stand still for it to happen. My serenity comes from long, hot showers ( especially in winter). It relaxes me to the point that I don’t want to get out of the shower. That’s my quiet space in real time. If you’re like me,…

Humility doesn’t have to be all bad. Last week, I sent a message I shouldn’t have sent. It wasn’t cruel, but it was sharp, and it carried that tired edge you get when you’re trying to feel in control. The second it left my phone, I felt it, that hot little rush of regret. Still,…

Shock is an awkward experience to discern. Most car accidents I’ve been in (even small ones), I went into shock mode. My brain can’t deal with what is happening, so I go blank. I can still here everything, but it’s like someone has put a blindfold over my eyes. Have you ever gone suddenly cold,…

It’s Sunday night dread, and the house gets quiet in that very particular way. The weekend noise fades, the light changes, and somehow the clock sounds louder than it did all day. I can be totally fine at 3 p.m., but by 7 p.m., my chest feels tighter, my thoughts speed up, and Monday starts…

The calm before the storm invites peace into my life before all hell breaks loose. I feel quaint before chaos erupts. That’s usually how my life used to run, always chaos. Now, it’s so peaceful, it’s hard to believe. I am truly blessed to have made it through the storm. That feeling is the heart…

Desperation made me feel so alone when I was growing up. I would make friends with someone, then suffocate the friendship to death. In desperation, I would literally do anything to keep the friendship. They would walk out of my life, and life would repeat itself. It begins when you realize a person doesn’t want…

I first felt emotional numbness when I was a child. Of coarse, I didn’t understand that back then, but I see it now. Through all the bullying, I withdrew inside myself. I became numb to all of their harse words. I felt that was the only way to protect myself. The fog that hung over…

Betrayal from my brain is becoming worse each day. This post is a symbolic struggle of losing important cognitive abilities. It’s not meant to make you feel sorry for me. The first time I noticed it, I was mid-sentence, talking like normal, and then my mind went quiet. Not peaceful quiet. More like someone yanked…

Emotional healing can come from something that never was. A few years ago, I caught myself grieving something that didn’t have a funeral. No one sent flowers. No one checked in. Still, it hurt like loss. It was the life I was sure I’d have, the version of me I kept waiting to become. Maybe…

Gentle determination can lift you up in ways that you didn’t think were possible. I still remember the night I bombed a simple quiz.Nothing huge, just ten questions I should have known. I stared at the low score and felt that familiar knot of shame start to rise. But then something strange happened. Instead of…