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Depression Thoughts: Hopeless, Worthless, It Doesn’t Have To Be
So, depression thoughts: hopelessness and worthlessness, don’t accept it. “I’ll never amount to anything.” “Why am I living in this life?” Why can’t I just be happy?” Sound familiar? Those are intrusive depression thoughts that want you to stay in that frame of thinking. I used to be in that dark place, and there seemed…
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Selective Mutism: The Inability to Speak Your Mind
Selective mutism: the inability to speak your mind can lead to anxiety. “I can’t speak!” I was extremely shy growing up. I believe it had something to do with my first grade teacher physically and emotionally abusing me. When I tried to start a conversation with my peers, they would tell me to shut up.…
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How to Escape Depression After Christmas
How to escape depression after Christmas by keeping yourself occupied. Post Xmas depression, it’s about 10 PM on Christmas day, and I’m already feeling it. It’s like a big letdown. I know there will be other Christmases, but I still have the post-holiday blues. I’m not on for socializing (social anxiety), but I long for…
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TMS: Is It Safe?
TMS: is it safe? Back in the hey day, I thought about trying TMS (transcranial magnetic stimulation), but decided against it because of what happened with the ECT (Electroconvulsive therapy). It didn’t work after many sessions. After that, I didn’t think anything was going to work. I didn’t know at the time how it would…
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Can Melatonin Cause Depression?
Can melatonin cause depression? Some studies say yes, some say no. I was taking melatonin for a while. As the Parkinson’s movements became worse, I had to keep adjusting the dose of the melatonin. I quit taking it because it wasn’t helping anymore. When I stopped it, I took 40 mg every night. A very…
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Is America in a Silent Depression?
Is America in a Silent Depression? So, there are videos, starting from Tic Tok, roaming around social media about a “silent depression” in the U.S. This may be true, because most people choose to ignore the signs. I don’t know what the future is, but I feel like it isn’t good. The infrastructure of this…
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Electroconvulsive Therapy (ECT): Should or Shouldn’t You?
Electroconvulsive therapy (ECT): should or shouldn’t you? This maybe a biased post, because I did not have a good experience with electroconvulsive therapy (ECT). I’ll try to keep an open mind. I had a lot of bad influences when I was having shock therapy. For one thing, right before I was supposed to go for…
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Hypersomnia: Sleeping Out of Your Mind
Hypersomnia: sleeping out of your mind, because you’re trying to avoid something. I suppose when you have insomnia (like me), you almost wish you had hypersomnia. I would love to be able to sleep. Of course, when the depression was high, I had hypersomnia. But, I don’t wish to go back to the depression. It’s…
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Endogenous Depression: When Your Mind Turns Against You
With endogenous depression: when your mind turns against you. Can you have endogenous depression and exogenous depression simultaneously? Genetics caused my depression, but also trauma as a child. Genetically, I don’t know when it evolved. I was officially diagnosed at the age of sixteen. The trauma was by my first grade teacher for two years.…
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When the World Feels Heavy: Confronting Loneliness and Despair
When the world feels heavy: confronting loneliness and despair, one moment at a time. I once remember the feeling of lonely and depressed (or despair). I was sucked into that vortex when I was 16. Every person I asked for help from walked away from me. So, I was left to deal with a lot…